Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in unwritten47's LiveJournal:

Sunday, May 7th, 2006
8:25 pm	Hmmm Okay. I really really hope I get Secretary. Arghhh I have to wait like 3 weeks 18 more days until banquet. Ickkk. So long. I think that like half of me likes Clint a LOT and half of me doesn't? Which I think is really good, because that's an improvement. I have a really bad relationship issue. One month into my thing with Jesse I didn't like him at all. So, I think that maybe this time will be better, and I will be more confident with them or something. I just wish he would shower. :] (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 1st, 2006
10:38 am	okay I don't know what to do about running for exec. I was reading Ali's LJ, and she took a little survey, and one of the questions was, "What is one of your dreams?" and she said "To be drama president." Should I run? I want to be Choir President, but Hannah's going to get it. So I could be VP? I really want Drama President, but Ali's going to get it. I don't know. I have a better chance of getting Drama President than Choir, and I want Drama more, but it's like, Ali's going to get it. I don't know. Helppp (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 5th, 2006
12:42 pm	Shalom Okayyyyyyy So I've been grounded all weekend, and yesterday I was talking to AJ. Me: I'm groundeddd Him: I'll bring you a cake with "special filling" Me: As long as It's neither sexual nor threatening, okay. Him: It's a file so that you can break your way out. Me: Hahahaa *30 minutes later* I'm sitting in my room, and my sister walks in with a cake hahaha with a file in it. Wtf and then like 30 minutes after that, Clint calls me, and he's like "Come outside" And he and Kevin are hiding behind my lampost hahah wtf (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 19th, 2006
12:33 pm	well. Last Person Who: x. Slept in your bed: me x. Saw you cry: mm after solo concert x. Spent the night with: Ali after rehearsal. x. You went to the movies with: Aliii x. You went to the mall with: I haven't been there in so long.. I think last time was at Winter formal for dinner x. Sent you an email: MJ about true friends, but she took me off her top 8? hahhh have you ever??? x. Said "I Love You" and meant it: Yeah i say it a lot x. Been to New York? Yeah, but I've never spent the day in NYC. x. Florida: Nope x. California: haha x. Canada: nope x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: probably x. Had an imaginary friend: Mmm a fake one. Actually two. Larry and Elmer RANDOM... x. Red or blue: blue x. Spring or Fall: Fall is the best season. Period. x. Are you bored: yeah x. Last noise you heard: Me eating it downstairs hahaa x. Last time you went out of the state: i don't even know. My family doesn't really go on vacations x. Do you have a crush on someone: Yep x. What book are you reading now: Middlesex and Speak. x. What is the first thing you think when you wake up: I get to set the alarm forward another 15 minutes. Yay. x. How many rings before you answer: Until I run up the stairs. x. Future daughter's name: Autumn x. Future son's name: Mmm deryck? x. you sleep with a stuffed animal: hahh Gin<3 and some old ones. Chadwick who is, according to nikki, symbolic of my 7th grade lunchability (popularity). x. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be: Broadway actress. Amazing. x. Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous: righty x. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys: yeah x. What's under your bed: boxes and old stuff x. College plans: my mom wants me to go nearby, so i would go to Fullerton or Chapman, but i want to go to the east coast x. Piercings: Ears x. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Nope EXTRA STUFF x. Do you do drugs: No x. Do you drink: Not yet x. Who is your best friend: To be honest, Nikki, Cynthia, and Neeko are the only people who I could ever count on. x. What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use: Either pantene pro-v or Thermasilk x. What are you most scared of: not being talented. x. What clothes do you sleep in: big tshirt and pj pants x. Who is the last person who called you: nikki x. Where do you want to get married: The beach x. Favorite number: 47, 4 and 7 are my lucky numbers x. Are you timely or always late: late usually, but that needs to change x. Do you have a job: nope x. Do you like being around people: Yes x. Best feeling in the world: Passion x. Worst feeling in the world: lack of confidence x. Are you a health freak: nope. SHITTY STUFF x. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: mmm yes, but not love love. x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: I don't cry over boys. They're not worth it. x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: mm not really x. Ever afraid you'll never get married: Nope x. Ever want kids?: Yes FAVORITE :x.Memory: Just being young and carefree. I really miss that. x. Color: Green and black IN THE LAST 72 HOURS, HAVE YOU... x. Cried: Nope thankfully x. Sung: I sing as much as i can x. Said "I love you" and meant it? Not to a guy.. no. I've never been in love. x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: Friends yes x. Met someone new: Yeah x. Moved on: I try x. Missed someone: I miss Cynthia every day, and I miss my grandpa a lot. x. Hugged someone: Yeah x. Kissed someone: nope x. Fought with your parents: No i don't think so x. Dreamt about someone: Mmmm Someone who is extremely off limits x. Had a lot of sleep: not really (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
2:48 pm	mmmm So I pretty much had the worst day ever. I was told that I was a "Bitch" and also "You're a waste of gas." :] Mmm. But there was one lovely lovely loveeellyyy part of my day I discovered the existance of an ELIZABETHTOWN VOLUME 2!!!!! Soundtrack And, I will of course burn it for you best friend Current Mood: crappy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 27th, 2006
9:31 am	mmm well. I really don't think I'll ever be good enough for broadway. I'll never be the one who everyone's like "Oh my gosh. She is so talented." just by watching one performance. Maybe I should just give up. I've always wanted to become a cop of some kind. I guess I could do that instead. I don't have good people skills either. I wish I knew what God's purpose is for me. I wish it was to Act or Sing. But I know I'm not good enough. It hurts when everyone's like, "You're friends with Ali Dudas, right? Oh my gosh she is such a good singer." or "She is such a good actress. I love that girl." Mmmm. Too bad no one ever says that about me. I sound really self-centered, I know. But I can't help feeling hurt by these things. I wish like, one day, Ms. C or some like ultra talented drama kid would see me act, and they would pull me aside and tell me that I'm talented. I want to know what I do wrong. I wish I could go up to Ms. C and ask her, but like I said, I definitely don't have the people skills for that. I wish I was more confident. Lately, I've had some confidence, but to me, it feels more like conceit. I would rather have no self esteem than be conceited. Watching Staci yesterday, I was like "Holy crap. I want that." I felt awkward even sitting there. ARGHHH. I wish someone would just like, give me one on one advice or something. And you know what the terrible part is? I could be super talented, but since I have a life where like, I'm not the center of attention, it wouldn't even matter. Ali and I are going on a starbucks date today. Maybe I could ask her. I should. But I probably won't. Current Mood: pessimistic (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
12:26 am	The Beauty Is These are very popular, in Italy. It’s the land of naked marble boys. Something we don’t see a lot in Winston-Salem, That’s the land of corduroys. I’m just a someone in an old museum. Far away from home as someone can go. And the beauty is I still meet people I know. Hello. This is wanting something, this is reaching for it, This is wishing that a moment would arrive. This is taking chances, this is almost touching, what the beauty is. I don’t understand a word they’re saying, I’m as different here as different can be. But the beauty is I still meet people like me. Everyone’s a mother here, in Italy. Everyone’s a father, or a son. I think if I had a child, I would take such care of her. Then I wouldn’t feel like one. I’ve hardly met a single soul, but I am not alone. I feel grown. This is wanting something, this praying for it, This is holding breath and keeping fingers crossed. This is counting blessings, this is wondering when I’ll see that boy again. I’ve got a feeling he’s just a someone, too. And the beauty is, when you realize, when you realize, Someone could be looking for a someone like you. This pretty much is a definition of my life. (Comment on this)
Friday, January 20th, 2006
10:54 pm	Omg So A Light in the Piazza is pretty much the most beautiful thing I've ever heard. I wish I could sing like that. It's gorgeous. I kind of just want to spend my whole life listening to it. I love it. Mmm So me and AJ and some kids from his church are going to see Oklahoma tomorrow. I'm really excited. I really want to see that musical. Weeeeeeee class tomorrow!!!! I can't wait to see everyone. Arghhh. Tomorrow is going to be a good day. :] (Comment on this)
Monday, January 16th, 2006
7:49 am	Lead me, Guide me, Love me. I asked God for strength that I might achieve. I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey. I asked for health that I might do greater things. I was given infirmity that I might do better things. I asked for riches that I might be happy. I was given poverty that I might be wise. I asked for power that I might have the praise of men. I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God. I asked for all things that I might enjoy life. I was given life that I might enjoy all things. I got nothing that I asked for, but everything I hoped for. Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered. I am, among all men, most richly blessed. Rehearsal today. I love love love theatre. The bright lights on my face, being someone entirely different; i crave it. It's wonderful. It's exciting. I wish I had never commented on that. That made things really awkward I guess. I feel better now. My tonsils aren't swollen anymore, but I'm having trouble breathing, and my throat still hurts. I'm so afraid that I won't be better by my performance. I need to be I need to prove to C that I am good at this. This is my life. Ever since I read the bible yesterday, I came up with so many questions. I wish there was someone I could talk to. Who can I talk to that won't judge me? Maybe it doesn't matter. It's the lessons inside the Bible that are of real importance. Right? I would rather live my life believing there is a God, and die to find out there isn't, than to live my my life believing there is no God, and die to find out there is. Current Mood: sick (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 15th, 2006
10:51 pm	uhgm I can't even tell myself the truth. I don't know. Blinded by the silk mask of everything she thought she once knew. She stared at her pale reflection in the mirror and attempted to sort through the truths and dreams. She clenched tightly on the pearl necklace around her bruised neck. With her anger, she pulled it off, breaking the string. Twenty pearls bounced onto the blood stained tile. So many juxtapositions and so little comprehension. "I don't know" is all I can say. Current Mood: sick (Comment on this)
8:59 pm	oops. Well. That made things sufficiently awkward. I suck. (Comment on this)
11:28 am	mmmm Listen to the voice of my cry, my King and my God; for to you do I pray. Psalms 5:2 Hearken unto the voice of my cry, my King, and my God: for unto thee will I pray. Psalms 5:8 Lead me, O LORD, in thy righteousness because of mine enemies; make thy way straight before my face (Comment on this)